Sometimes I just want to explode. I just need a good ass cry. I need someone to tell me it's okay. That I'm not a fuck up and that I'm not useless. I want someone I can lean on.
But I can't. I can't lean on or depend on anyone. It always seems to blow up in my face. I don't like feeling weak. I hate it! But I feel weak and alone A LOT!
I feel like my chest is going to cave upon itself. Like my lungs won't except the air I'm trying to grasp. My heart won't slow down from its excessive pumping. I can't go on like this.
I need a release before I really go off the deep end. I'm seriously hanging onto my last strings. And I can't, I just can't seem to take control.
Going to school for my English lit exam. I've put so much pressure.on myself to.get a high B\/A. And if I get anything below a B I will be extremely pissed off. #exam#nervous#scared#pressure